; how's my love life? ; ~ part 2 ~

my first year highschool, it was exciting getting to meet new classmates.

and as usual, i have a crush on someone again.

his name was Roberto Laco, he's first year too.

but he's a repeater student, supposedly he's in a higher level.

he's in second section and im in first section.

he's so tall, handsome and define "astig", he's really unique and a very good in sports.

i first noticed him when we had Intramurals, he was the player of basketball and volleyball.

no doubt about that because his body was very fit on every sports he took.

then one day, together with his classmates, they trespassed in our classroom and then he suddenly seated in the back and while im sitting in front listening to my discman.

he asked one of my classmate, "Ano'ng pangalan niya? 'Yung may discman?".

my classmate was shocked because she already knew that i have a crush on him and she quickly told me that "Lani, tinanong ni Roberto 'yung pangalan mo."

i was surprised and completely happy when i knew that.

i just stared at him secretly and when i looked at him, he was already looking at me.

so, im kinda felt nervous and very shy on that day.

and that's the time when our adviser just popped out in nowhere and she gets mad on Roberto and his classmates becasue of trespassing.

it's prohibited in my old school, duh! ;)

anyway, he's not my first love after all that i was so attached to him.

he's really not my first love. i never fell completely on that person because after that day when he asked my name, after one week, he eventually dropped out of school and i never knew what's the reason behind it.

that's when i thought, studying is not the number one priority for him.

and i also thought, infatuation doesn't bother me, it makes me feel special for someone and it makes me feel happy too.

there was nothing fascinating story when i was in second year but my third year was great,

that year when i felt something special in my heart and i found my first love.

he's my classmate since grade three but i fell inlove with him when i was already in highschool. weird, isn't it?

"love really comes when you least expect it and you will feel it with the person
you least expected to love."

his name was Francis Erick Sampayan.

i really don't know how i fell inlove wiht him. maybe because we just became too close and whenever we were together, i feel that im always fine and im always happy and laughing about everything because he really has a high sense of humor.but you know what's really weird about it,

i fell in love with a guy who was actually
a / even if he's a........

......... Bi .... sexual .....

well, all of my classmates used to teased him ever since we're in elementary that he's a gay and he never really admit it but the way he acts and the way he moves looks like he's really a gay.

but i know that he had a girlfriend when he was in second year and they broke up.

my instinct said, that's the reason why he became a bi-sexual now.

he doesn't want to be hurt again with a girl who doesn't deserve his love.

he's too afraid now to take the risk of loving.

so, he actually loving some guys now. haha!

but you know, he's really a good dancer, maybe for me it's really a pogi points if you're good in dancing.

and as of now, our relationship as a friend becomes stronger than ever even if we graduated and we've both separated ways.

i didn't even try to confess to him but there's one time that i said to him i liked him but i said it through a joke and he really thought of it as a joke.

well, as for sure, i don't wanna be the one who will court him and get busted. haha!

but then, i just set aside my feelings about him until all my feelings was gone and i accepted the fact that he's

bi-sexual, joke!

truly, that we're just true friends even though he really didn't knew that i loved him back then.

but still, if ever he changes his mind to be a man again.

i'll take my chances right away. haha!

because... i don't know... i just love all his traits.

i'll never forget that wonderful person.

after all that we've been through as friends, he didn't hurt my feelings.

all of my days with him was happy.

and my admiration for him will never be gone. he's my very special person.

all of my moments with him were so amazing and i was really glad to have him in my life even if he's just my friend. still im very happy and very lucky.

whenever im with him, i can just forget all of my worries and problems.

looks like he has a magic in his aura that can erased all of your worries. haha!

and now, i really miss him so much!

regards to all of my friends in highschool. =(

and that's the part 2 of this not-so-important blog. haha!

i just hope all the readers were enjoyed reading it. =)

and the next one is coming right up. (^^,)

if there's a part 2, there's always a part 3. haha!

(ORIGINALLY POSTED: 9/8/09)