; full of REASONS ;

"things in life move with twists and
turns... and they happen with valid reasons"

that's true, there were so many things that happened in my life.

i can say that all of the things that happened to me, it really improved myself for the better and changed my life with the things that im capable of.

i've experienced any kind of things right now.

one of those things that i've experienced was when i hurt deeply by somebody.

im not pointing out to one person but to everybody who hurt me.

im the type of person who reminisce or remember the good things that happened to me instead reminisce or remember the bad things.

of course, it's simple, because i want to become cheerful as always.

as possible as i can, i don't want to remember the bad memories that i had.

who wants to remeber all of those kind of things anyway?

it only makes me sad.

i am a sensitive person. i don't want to be hurt by other people especially if that person is someone who's close to my heart.

yes, im really sensitive but i never show to anyone if i was hurt.

i will hide it.

and there's two reasons for it, the first one, i don't want my friends and my family to see me that im sad, worried or suffering and second, if they see me like that, i don't know what to say with them, i am more on expressing of what i really feel than saying of what i really feel.

i really don't want to show them that im tired of anything.

i want them to see me that im strong and im always ready for anything that i'll encounter even if it's bad or good. i preferred to cry and face my problem alone.

seriously, i don't want them to pity me.

and i don't want them to be worried just because of me.

i know, all the things that i've been through has a purpose.

all of the things that are happening to us right now are definitely has a purpose.

and God gave you struggles and problems but not to feel down by yourself and just ran away from it rather face it and solve it with having faith in God.

because with God, all things are possible.

don't be afraid to conquer your fear.

there's always a reason for everything.

if there's no reason for everything, we're not belong here for nothing.

life won't be real without problems.

(ORIGINALLY POSTED: 9/12/09)